This blog is mostly for whatever I’m feeling at the moment—it is for the sad person, the mess of a human being inside of me that no one sees. It’s for all the things I can’t post on my main blog. I’m not a thinspo blog, but I do continue to struggle with an eating disorder. My best friend, who is a phenomenal triathlete, has helped me so much, but I’ve realized only I can cure me. He has helped me realize that I can be lean and beautiful but be strong at the same time, which has kept me from sinking fully back into anorexia. I do admit, there are still days that I refuse to eat. Gaining some weight back was tough especially since it came back so fast due to how I had lost it, but I realize that my body is built to be muscular which weighs more than fat. Self-harm and suicidal thoughts are stil things I struggle with. Some posts may be triggering. This blog is for me, but if I can help anyone I will be more than happy to. Much loveTumblr (3.0; @chaseyourgoal)http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m1m1nbsnTO1qm7k7ao1_500.gif"/><br/><br/>http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/29520987243http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/29520987243Wed, 15 Aug 2012 21:38:47 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lr3h5hhT791qzcwzbo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/29520971281http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/29520971281Wed, 15 Aug 2012 21:38:33 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m8tba15CG61qz6fvao1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a href="http://thatkindofwoman.tumblr.com/post/29516036633/holly-is-a-babe" class="tumblr_blog">thatkindofwoman</a>:</p> <blockquote><p>Holly is a babe. </p></blockquote>http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/29520965885http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/29520965885Wed, 15 Aug 2012 21:38:28 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m8iacpU08K1rduw6zo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/29520928499http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/29520928499Wed, 15 Aug 2012 21:37:55 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m4yjswrsOp1qfb46yo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/29520909892http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/29520909892Wed, 15 Aug 2012 21:37:38 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m8todaNIMO1rpz6ono1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a href="http://a-c0ld-day-in-hell.tumblr.com/post/29516723499/1-tumblr-on-we-heart-it" class="tumblr_blog">a-c0ld-day-in-hell</a>:</p> <blockquote><p>(1) Tumblr on We Heart It. <a href="http://weheartit.com/entry/35003494"></a><a href="http://weheartit.com/entry/35003494"></a><a href="http://weheartit.com/entry/35003494"></a><a href="http://weheartit.com/entry/35003494"></a><a href="http://weheartit.com/entry/35003494"></a><a href="http://weheartit.com/entry/35003494"><a href="http://weheartit.com/entry/35003494">http://weheartit.com/entry/35003494</a></a></p></blockquote>http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/29520906842http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/29520906842Wed, 15 Aug 2012 21:37:36 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m8sxi5M8rE1rq743oo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/29520905037http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/29520905037Wed, 15 Aug 2012 21:37:34 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m764q7docM1r9ojp3o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://lor-rehn.tumblr.com/post/29515524322/lololol">lor-rehn</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>lololol</p> </blockquote>http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/29520899823http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/29520899823Wed, 15 Aug 2012 21:37:29 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m7zj8dhtLn1r078u3o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/29520893573http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/29520893573Wed, 15 Aug 2012 21:37:24 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m4w7ldFg241qj6vx4o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/29520886301http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/29520886301Wed, 15 Aug 2012 21:37:18 -0400<p>I don&#8217;t get why the fuck this still hurts. I don&#8217;t understand how I could possibly have gone from being friends with a girl who was like my sister to hating her so much I feel fucking ILL when I see a picture of her. I hate her. I feel like going and punching something. Ha nah I&#8217;ll probably just go cut myself. Yeah. Sounds good.</p>http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/29520841044http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/29520841044Wed, 15 Aug 2012 21:36:00 -0400self harmhatehatredpersonalfriendsfriendship<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m567aeN4DH1rxikdmo1_400.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/24513313399http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/24513313399Tue, 05 Jun 2012 22:09:14 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m567jespn01rxikdmo1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/24513278583http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/24513278583Tue, 05 Jun 2012 22:08:45 -0400http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/24512916407http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/24512916407Tue, 05 Jun 2012 22:03:40 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m569nlyHMq1rvknq0o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/24512912207http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/24512912207Tue, 05 Jun 2012 22:03:37 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m56as4ab0m1rv8ky9o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/24512813270http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/24512813270Tue, 05 Jun 2012 22:02:12 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m56aak01mK1rvknq0o1_400.png"/><br/><br/>http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/24512809992http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/24512809992Tue, 05 Jun 2012 22:02:09 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m56a67ev411rvknq0o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://sick-of-trying-sick-of-lying.tumblr.com/post/24511531661/just-run-run-far-away-as-long-as-you-can-these">sick-of-trying-sick-of-lying</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>Just run, run far away, as long as you can,</p> <p>these are the things I say to myself daily.</p> </blockquote>http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/24512806023http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/24512806023Tue, 05 Jun 2012 22:02:06 -0400me: I'm depressed.<br /> friend: why?<br /> me: I don't know.<br /> friend: shut up your life is amazing you have so many things to be grateful for why are you such a whiny little bitch<br /> me: sorry.http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/24512508389http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/24512508389Tue, 05 Jun 2012 21:57:59 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lym8w96usq1r83xfro1_500.gif"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://faerie-breena.tumblr.com/post/16863872556">faerie-breena</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>This is why it hurts so much O_o</p> </blockquote>http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/24512503622http://chaseyourgoal.tumblr.com/post/24512503622Tue, 05 Jun 2012 21:57:55 -0400