This blog is mostly for whatever I'm feeling at the moment—it is for the sad person, the mess of a human being inside of me that no one sees. It's for all the things I can't post on my main blog. I'm not a thinspo blog, but I do continue to struggle with an eating disorder. My best friend, who is a phenomenal triathlete, has helped me so much, but I've realized only I can cure me. He has helped me realize that I can be lean and beautiful but be strong at the same time, which has kept me from sinking fully back into anorexia. I do admit, there are still days that I refuse to eat. Gaining some weight back was tough especially since it came back so fast due to how I had lost it, but I realize that my body is built to be muscular which weighs more than fat. Self-harm and suicidal thoughts are stil things I struggle with. Some posts may be triggering. This blog is for me, but if I can help anyone I will be more than happy to.
Much love <3
I don’t get it.
I don’t get why the fuck this still hurts. I don’t understand how I could possibly have gone from being friends with a girl who was like my sister to hating her so much I feel fucking ILL when I see a picture of her. I hate her. I feel like going and punching something. Ha nah I’ll probably just go cut myself. Yeah. Sounds good.
I wanna cut so much deeper